The feedback from my last post has been overall pretty helpful in gaining perspective...I welcome more! I do want to clarify that by no means are we walking around here in the doldrums or dreading this experience. On the contrary, we're savoring it, full of hope and excitement (and a good deal of frustration that we don't yet have the funds in place to complete the next step)...we want to get on with it, already! We're all feeling it...it was so cute just yesterday; Andrew was sitting at the table working on his math, and he was (not uncharacteristically) daydreaming.
A: "Mom, I just can't wait till we get baby Karis."
Me: "Neither can I! What makes you most excited?"
A: "I just want to see what she looks like and to help take care of her."
Me: "Well, it will be a long while till she comes home."
A: "You still have a lot of paperwork to do, right?"
My "Weighty" post was more of an effort on my part to get my mind around where my heart already is...and if you're reading this blog, I apologize that some parts are such a rough ride! Have you ever heard the quote, "To have a child is to forever have your heart wandering outside of your body"? I may not be quoting it exactly, but you get the jist. I'm sure we all have witnessed a heartbreaking moment of pain that our children have had to endure, despite our best efforts to protect them. But as my sister reminded me, adopted or not, another skin color or not, each of our kids will experience pain that we can't protect them from, and they will be resilient and it will make them stronger people. And a friend of mine who has one daughter (from an unnamed country so as to protect her privacy since I didn't yet ask her permission to post this) :) and is in the process of adopting again says, "it's been my experience that there are very few truly rude and stupid people or comments." She also reminded me that the stories you hear are the "worst case" scenarios of prejudice or lack of bonding or identity issues or, or, or...and that the chances of even one "worst case" happening to us was highly unlikely, let alone all of them!
When it comes down to it, there are many aspects of adoption that can be scary, which is fine as long as the fear turns into dependence on God so that you aren't scared away. Like I've said before, just because something is hard doesn't mean that it's not right...and it will all be worth it when we finally hold our baby girl in our arms.